It’s fuckin ridiculous. I already told you how much I hate that shit, and you still do it anyways. You’re not putting my feelings into consideration, and you’re just gonna do whatever the fuck you want. I thought that since we’re together, it’s a 50/50 effort, 100% from both sides. No matter how much you try to assure me that nothing will ever happen, I still have that hateful feeling. If you don’t give a shit about how I feel, what the fuck am I supposed to do?..
I hate to admit it, but yeah, I am scared. Someone so amazing comes into my life, and all they do is give you everything you could ask for. It was all my fault. I took your generosity for granted. You’ve done so much when I’ve done so little. It’s times like this when I ask myself, “What if?” What if I acted differently. What if I loved and cared for you as much as you did for me. I should’ve, I could’ve, but I didn’t. It really is all my fault. It was my decisions that brought us here. I never wanted to end up where we are now. If only I made different decisions, maybe things would’ve turned out better. What can I do now? I regret everything I’ve done to you, but I don’t regret loving you. I just really hope it’s not too late..
You drive me crazy sometimes, but it’s okay. I know you always give me your best, and that’s always good enough to me.
Anonymous asked: aww! your girlfriends so lucky (: feel better kevin!
LOL thanks.
It’s so unfair. I have a legitimate reason for everything I do. I never intend to hurt you or ignore your opinions. What happened today was completely out of my hand, and I truly believe that I had a reason for what I did. You may be pissed and spiteful of me, but I understand. I just hope you understand that I still wanna work things out. Ignoring me isn’t gonna solve anything. I feel like an idiot for trying so hard to reach out to you. I just hope you at least meet me half way.
It’s funny how much shit you put me through today, and I don’t see any guilt nor remorse. I can never be mad at you, but you just really disappointed me today. You’re the last person I’d expect to have stood me up. Just don’t get my hopes up again.
Is this what our relationship has come to? There’s no more arguments, no more fire in you. Your reactions to everything are just passive now. To make things worse, you won’t talk to me about how you truly feel. You’ve given up on me. You’ve lost that fierceness and you just don’t seem to care anymore. I miss that in you.
Sometimes shit happens, but you can’t let all these negative vibes phase you. You just have to keep moving forward. Bad things happen, but it always get better.
I don’t remember how painful heartaches were.. I hate this feeling..
